Hey there lovelies! I thought today I would do something a little different to welcome the Grow Your Blog Hop bloggers to my page. Thanks to Kristy at Runaway Bridal Planner for setting up this fun way to get to know other bloggers! First off, Hey I am Carleeh! I am a 34 yr old mother of two teens and a Bitty and a Charlie Brown (yorkie). I am married to a combat disabled Army veteran, who I caregive for. We have been stationed in GA and KY, and we are now retired in WA.
I am gonna do a little back story and a fun acrostic.
So what is the mission this Mamarazza chick is on?
Here is a little back story.
Once upon a time So there I was after a Ring of Fire style weight roller coaster ride (where I got stuck upside down for way too long) with having 3 babies, sitting in a room crying, mourning the body God originally gave me. You know, the one I always hated because it was never skinny enough, the one I have desperately wanted to have again.
You see, I was always a thin girl (w/curves) 117lbs at 5″7 of skinny fat, but never appreciated my body. Instead, I always tried to channel Kate Moss, even developed minor anorexia, thankfully that was short lived. So when getting pregnant meant gaining 70lbs, my self esteem was rocky to put it mildly. Okay let me back track a little, after kid #2 I ended up weighing in at just shy of 200lbs, to me it was kinda like hitting an octave skip from a size 2 to 22. Though, I only wore a size 22 for about 6 months, I was in a size 16 for almost a whole year. So I developed a separate “identity” if you will of what I saw every time I looked into the mirror irregardless of the 45 lbs I lost. Sickness took over, I got down to 105lbs (suspected hyperthyroidism) on my 5″7 frame. I looked like death(felt like it too), but I had that “dream” waistline I always wanted. Ugh, I have society to thank for that obsession. I did get well and gain back to my natural pre-baby healthy weight. Then my mind frame changed from low self esteem to a shallow defense mechanism. I was always aware of my flaws, because that painful body shaming mentality never fully went away. I knew deep down it would come back to haunt me because conceit isn’t true self love.
Third child woes. After 6 years, of wearing anything and everything I wanted feeling good about (more like obsessed with) myself. Pregnancy was kinda like my slice of humble pie. I gained back up to 200lbs AGAIN! This time after birth it didn’t want to go away. I waited 1 year, 2 years, and by the 3rd year I knew that
horrific magic fat losing sickness wasn’t gonna happen. Depression set in, I didn’t want to work for it, be miserable, or be in pain. The doctor was telling me I was unhealthy, my kids were telling me I cried to much, and my husband was miserable watching me self loathe. Then came rock bottom. I decided to lace up.
So my fitness journey started, the mission to take back my health and to try to get my body back. I found some fitness communities on Instagram/Facebook, downloaded a few fitness apps, and hit the pavement! There were a few faceplants (oh crow…), a little weight loss followed by weight gain (food struggle), but there were always goals to be worked on, and I was smashing them left and right.
The mission started to change a little, I started having other women cheer me on and telling me I (me? really?) was inspiring them! I realized if I could do anything well it was talk…and my @mamarazza micro blog was born and later this one followed. I wanted to be real and transparent, and talk about the goals but also be honest about failures. I want other women to find their STRONG and to learn to love themselves. In a world of competition and one upping, I want to remind them that God made them wonderfully. They didn’t need to earn their worth. No matter what level of fitness, what pant size wear, or where they are in their journey , I wanted them to know that they have someone in their corner. I am imperfect but own my flaws, and live by the motto NEVER GIVE UP. I want to inspire them to get up and fight for their health and to get them and their families out into their communities! My mission is Sweat and Motivation.
Here are a few important things I strive for
C – conquering fear
A- adapting and overcoming
R- relationships – God, family, community
L – living with intention
E- eating for fuel
E- equipping girls, empowering women
Here are some things I absolutely love- Couldn’t forget to add some sweat!
S- swaggy beats (I love christian hip hop) like I can’t sit still.
W- women who are 100% straight up she’ra women lovers club types
E- enormous crowds of runners! That energy is electric, it lights me up!
A- “about that action, boss”, My Seahawks they rock my socks. Win or Lose.
T- the city of Seattle, the first place my heart knew as home.
S- shopping local is my thang! (thrift stores, farmers markets, and local grown companies/brands)
Thank you so much so visiting my blog! I hope you feel like we sat down and chatted over coffee, and leave making a new friend! I would love to stay in contact.
What would your name acrostic list say? Can you relate to any part of my health journey? xoxo
Sweat ’til you Shine,